The Lady Finger

June 14, 2011

한국, I'll See You One Day!

Semua karena pengaruh film, drama, musik, artis-artisnya bahkan makanannya, saya jadi ingin menggunjungi Korea Selatan. Korea Selatan sangat pintar mempromosikan negaranya melalui artis-artisnya. sampai jingle Visit Korea pun menggunakan jasa artis untuk mempromosikannya, salah satunya Girls Generation (SNSD), Super Junior, 2PM, TVXQ, JYJ, BigBang dan masih banyak lagi. saya kagum sekali dengan pemerintahan korea, kagum dengan kota-kotanya, kagum dengan ramah tamahnya orang-orang korea, suka dengan bahasanya, dan suka dengan makanannya. semua ini sudah menjadi obsesi saya untuk mengunjungi negara yang maju akan pariwisatanya itu. kalau ada kesempatan untuk mengunjungi Korea Selatan saya akan melakukan hal-hal menyenangkan disana dan saya sudah mempersiapkan kemungkinan tersebut.

Seoul: 11 Things to Do


Don't Forget To Bring Seoul Subway Map
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Don't Forget to Buy T-Money Card
(can be use in bus, subway, public telephone, vending machine, etc.)
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Go To Myeong-Dong Street
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Relaxing at Cheonggyecheon
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Go Shopping at Namdaemun Market
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Go to Itaewon, The Place For Foreigner
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Having a Korean Cuisine
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Go Skiing at Yongpyong Ski Resort
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Let's Do Some Fun in Everland Resort and Lotte World
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Carribean Bay
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Lotte World
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Taking Picture at Namsan Tower and Lock Up Our Love (?)
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Go to Ssamsiegil, Insan-Dong : The Special Spiral-Like Stairway
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Selain tempat-tempat yang menyenangkan di Korea, saya juga jatuh cinta sama sense of fashion-nya remaja-remaja korea. walaupun saya bukan seorang pengamat fashion dan fashion is not my passion, saya jatuh cinta dengan gaya berbusana remaja Korea. mereka kadang suka berdandan agak kehebohan sih tapi enggak seheboh Japanese fashion, Korean fashion itu jauh lebih simple. i love their Autumn or Winter style!

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April 27, 2011

Prepare For The Worst.

I've got interviewed by family from Netherlands who work in Netherlands Embassy for Indonesia. why i can got an interviewed by them? because i joined an Au Pair on website (Au pair is a domestic assistant from a foreign country working for, and living as part of, a host family. Typically, au pairs take on a share of the family's responsibility for childcare as well as some housework, and receive a small monetary allowance for personal use.-wikipedia)

why I want follow the Au Pair?
because, i can go abroad without having to spend money and i get salary from it.
emang sih jatuhnya kita jadi Nanny, tapi it's okay for me. banyak senior saya yang jadi Au Pair dan sepulangnya mereka dari Eropa, mereka tidak pulang dengan tabungan yang pas-pasan ya cukuplah kalau buat beli motor 2 biji, itu kalau kerja selama setahun, yaa..
anyway, selama kita jadi nanny disana, selain digaji kitapun mendapatkan fasilitas yang layak dan kita juga bisa disekolahin sama hostfam kita. seperti senior saya yang 1 tahun jadi Au Pair di Jerman, she attended German language course and she went to Europe! (beruntungnya dia jalan-jalan ke Eropa di biayain pula sama hostfam nya.) Gaji yang kita dapat tuh sekitar (Euro) 260 - 350, lumayan banget buat uang jajan selama disana, itu semua gaji bersih. belum lagi kalau dapat hostfam yang baik, kita juga bisa dikasih uang saku untuk jalan-jalan.

About the interviewed..
Saturday, April 9th, 2011.
I went to her residence (Mrs.Jessica). she's so kind and very warmly.
she asked me about everything, about "can you take care of new born baby and bla bla bla" and she asked me about the households and bla bla bla. she has a son named Maxi 3 years-old and and the baby is still her tummy. my interviewed went well enough. you know, my grammar is terrible, but she was okay about that, she can speak Indonesia too but she want tested me in English because in Netherlands Bahasa is not allowed (yaa iyalah gue juga paham ma'am.)
setelah ngobrol-ngobrol, ternyata ada beberapa orang yang sudah di interview sebelumnya dan ada juga yang dari Bandung. aduh semakin ketat nih persaingan jadi Nanny nya si Maxi. akhirnya interview selesai juga. si Ma'am bakal ngabarin secepatnya. yaa secepatnya...

3 hari kemudian...
i texted her, told that i went to campus and asked about permission to get postpone to my lecturer dan dia bales ttg kapan saya bisa kira-kira cuti saya bisa keluar dan bla bla bla..
saya balas lengkap banget sampe tanggal detail saya bisa ngambil cutinya kapan.. saya tungguin balasan dia tapi gak di bales.

2 hari kemudian...
dia baru bales, dan bilang "apakah universitas kamu ada kemungkinan tidak memberi izin kamu pergi ke Belanda?"
saya balas, apa ada. saya bisa dapat cuti setelah saya mengikuti final exam di awal juni dan saya bisa dapat cuti kuliah di tenga juni atau awal juli..
saya nunggu balesannya lagi, dan gak di bales...

3 hari kemudian...
si Ma'am akhirnya bales "apakah orang tua keberatan untuk kamu tinggal 1 tahun di Belanda?" di dalem hati bilang "buseeet deh si Ma'am kayanya pas interview gue bilang kalau orang tua gue gak keberatan sama sekali, malah mereka ngedukung gue buat dapetin pengalaman baru"
kayanya ini pertanda deh kalau gue gak bakal dapet Au Pair.
akhirnya gue bales, dan lagi-lagi gak dibales..

sms dari si Ma'am pun tak kunjung datang, sms gue terakhir pun gak dibales sama dia. kayanya imipian saya menginjak Eropa akan kandas nih..
so, i decided to prepare for the worst. jadi kalau dapet kabar yang gak enak jadi gak sakit hari banget.. tapi di dalam hati tetep aja ketar-ketir khawatir nungguin jawaban dari si Ma'am. gak munafik sih, gue pengen banget dapet jawaban YA...
yaa, tapi entahlah, kita liat aja nanti gimana....

7 hari kemudian...
kalau kata Nikita Willy, setelah penantian panjang akhirnya si Ma'am sms gue
"Dear Laras, it took a while before we met the girls. UNFORTUNATELY, we have not choosen you as our Au Pair. I am sorry. If you want us to help you to find a family in Netherlands, let us know and we will help you.
Kind regards, Mrs. Jessica"

see? fortunately, i've been prepared for the worst first. so it wasn't attacked me much. i'll find another way to catch my dreams. i'll find my way soon :)

March 8, 2011

when you feel so down, but you have no words to say.

everything is going messed up, yes everything. dunno why, i feel so gloomy in a couple of days. i feel like lost in Sahara. nowhere to go and nowhere to be.
have you ever feel like, you have something to say but in the other side the words that you want to say stick on your tongue? and you don't have any other words to explain what you meant.
it's not about love anymore, its about things that i really want it. what exactly i really want? i don't even know what i want. its too much. i want this and that. but i am confused, from where i have to start?

February 23, 2011

Lots of Love Sakawayana Part I

Hey, we meet again after several years we've never shared :D
anyway, time heals me for sure. everything's changed and so do i. no more tears and no more hurt feelings. (oke kita ubah topik pembicaraannya)

Satu bulan di Desa Sakawayana untuk menunaikan Kuliah Kerja Nyata sangat membuat saya bangkit kembali dari keterpurukan. seriously, because of them i can let everything go. they give unlimited happiness and i feel so blessed.

Desa Sakawayana itu terletak di Kecamatan Malangbong, Kabupaten Garut. pertama datang ke Desa Sakawayana kita semua disuguhi dengan pemandangan sawah yang terbentang luas. udara yang masih asri, ada sungai serta warga yang sangat ramah. saya senang disana.
sesampainya di guest house kita kaya dapet jackpot. oiya rumah cewek sama cowok dipisah dan jaraknya, masyaAllah jauhnya. sesampainya dirumah cewek, kita celingak-celinguk melihat kondisi rumah dan.........ya jauh dari harapan. tapi rumahnya cukup layak untuk ditinggali selama 1 bulan yang terdiri dari13 orang cewek-cewek kece. tapi kamar mandinya too disaster, saya tidak tega menjelaskannya because its hard to explain and too tragic. pokonya kamar mandi menyatu dengan dapur, jadi kalau kita mandi kita bisa sambil ngobrol sama yg lagi masak dan di belakang kamar mandi itu kandang kambing jadi klo subuh-subuh mau ngambil wudhu kita saut-sautan sama kambing. sayang sekali saya tidak ada foto si kamar mandi tersebut.

hari pertama kita masih pada kaku sama lain, sedikit berbicara. ketika program untuk survey ke rumah warga dimulai (saya lupa hari keberapa tepatnya) kita dibagi menjadi 2 tim. dan saya kebagian di tim pertama dan itu kita harus survey ke RW 01 dan RW 02 yang jarak tempuh ke RW tersebut Subhanallah jauhnya. tim saya terdiri dari Ajeng, Noe, Widya, Adit, Rian, dan Fery. perjalanan yang cukup memakan waktu panjang. kita melewati persawahan, hutan bambu, sungai dan kuburan. ok di skip aja nih, pulangnya kita lewat tengah-tengah sawah dengan tekstur jalan yang penuh rintangan (ok. lebay) tapi bener loh saya aja sampai jatuh. lucunya kita diantar oleh mantan ibu kepala desa.

setelah 7 hari dengan kekakuan. dengan sendirinya suasana jadi mencair. kita jadi semakin kompak dan Solid (ya Solid, Solid lah yang membuat kita menjadi solid. by the way, Solid itu adalah nama Koordinatur desa saya. ya semacam ketua kelompok kamilah.)
kita juga pergi ke sawah lo, kita survey tentang petani. kita terjun langsung ke lapangan dan menggebuk padi (apaan sih bahasa kerennya?) petaninya itu sepasang suami istri yang umurnya sekitar 70 tahunan. tapi mereka masih berkerja di sawah, loh. dan si bapak bisa bahasa belanda. pas ngobrol sama si bapak dan ibu tani, i feel like lost in translation. they spoke sundanese and i don't understand at all. hahaha

Beberapa hari setelah bersawah, kita kembali lagi ke RW 01 untuk ketemu sama Kepala Desa, kali ini dengan full team tidak dipisah-pisah lagi kelompoknya. kita ke Kepala desa untuk memberi tahukan program kerja anak-anak KKN Unpad dan tentunya untuk mendapatkan snack gratis. hahaha. oiya, lucunya kita anak-anak KKN selalu di kasih snack. entah itu singkong goreng, opak atau bahkan pisang selalu menjadi suguhan kira kalau pergi survey ke penduduk desa, tapi emang paling enak itu ya ke rumah Kepala desa. karena hidangannya itu beda sendiri. ihihihi. oiya kepala desanya itu (aduh saya lupa namanya) mukanya merengut melulu. saya sampai bingung loh, kok kita kaya kurang di ayomi yah sama beliau. rumors nya anak KKN sebelum kita itu sangat disambut sama kepala desa sebelumnya. huuh, mungkin nasib angkatan 2008 selalu apes. hehehe

berhubung rute rumah bapak kepala desa nya sama kaya waktu tim saya survey ke RW 01 jadi tim kami mengajak tim 2 lewat rute pematang sawah. hhmmm, biar mereka rasakan betapa menderitanya kita lewat ditengah sawah. hehehe. suasana nya jadi seru deh, kita foto-foto di tengah sawah, jalan-jalan di sungai yang notabene bau sama air aci, ketawa-ketawa. kapan lagi dapat moment yang semenyenangkan seperti ini. senang sekali rasanya. seru sekaliiiiii....

January 26, 2011

there's a good in goodbye :)

It's been a week after the day when he-left-me-alone-in-the-corner.
well, Allah loves me more than i expected. God won't let me through this pain all by myself. i can't say thank you enough to God about what happened. God is too kind, He let me cried all night, felt me the pain, He let me slept only for 2 hours in that day. after that, God showed that life is still goes on without him because life is too short to regret.

Sebulan ini saya sedang kuliah kerja nyata dan Allah pun memberiku teman-teman yang sangat menyenangkan. sehingga sedih ini tidak begitu berlarut-larut. ya, untuk 2 minggu kedepan saya yakin sakit ini tidak akan begitu terasa. untuk kehidupan selanjutnya, bisa saya pikirkan setelah kkn berakhir. untuk saat ini saya sangat bahagia berada di Desa Sakawayana ini.

I believe there's always rainbow after the rain and there's good in goodbye.
everything is gonna be fine. i have bestfriends who always be there for me. my mom always motivated me if "there's always God in your heart, and you always love God more than you love yourself then He will gives you unlimited happiness in your life"

times will fix the things out :)

January 18, 2011

Things Changed

And the day that I scared the most was came. I'm here sat alone in a shelf thought that he was waiting to things changed. But he's never realized it. He decided to be with her and left me alone. Oh God, 4 months it's the most quickest time for me to let him go. I just can't still believe it. Time goes so fast.

The most painful feeling when you look someone you love is loving someone else. YaaAllah, it really hurts me:____(
He texted me, and told me that he's dating Her and he said that he still love me. What kind of bullshit is that??? why he said that? how dare him, said that he still love me when he already dating with someone else? he such a jerk!
He told me that I have to move on.
Oh.. God you know how I feel more than I. You know what we did more than us. You know everything that we've through.

My chest hurts, I feel like an elephant was kicked me.
Maybe God gives me a sign because I'm too in love with him more than I love you, dear God.
I know someday everything will looks so bright, everything will beautiful in Your way.

Please God, help me. Make me stronger. Please make everything simple.
I just need time to heal.

All I need is time to heal...

January 15, 2011

the more you wanna know the more you get hurt!

When you have feeling to know a bout your ex on facebook, twitter on in other social network, you will get much hurt. Oh my God, I just knew that he is seeing someone else. And it hurts me :( even I'm not longer his girlfriend, I still get jealous. You know, I've been dated for 3 years and he easily and so quick to forget me. I feel so weak. Really. it makes my tears comes up and I can't handle it. Ya ya ya, my friends have told me for a million times to move on and I've tried. but even we broke up, in a couple weeks ago we still went together, watched movie, hold hands, he kissed in my for head and we cried. We're still love each other, but there are the things that we can't fix. I just can't believe that he's fallin' in love with someone else.
after everything we've been through, how could him forget and let me go so quickly? Its like you don't even care about how I feel about the situation. I just can't still let him go.

Oh dear.... i know it sounds so lame. but this is how i feel.
i feel like, i see the light at the end of the tunnel, but no matter how hard i try, i just cant seem to reach it......................................................

January 1, 2011

2011

HAPPY NEW YEAR! It's 2011 everyone!
Life goes so fast, isn't it? So much regret in 2010 but I've got too much blessing from God, and I feel blessed! Alhamdulillah, I've got almost everything that I wanted in 2010 but I've lose something, I lose something who really meant to me. My half heart was missing in September. You know, it's all my fault. I'm not suppose to regret anything that I've done! I don't have any resolutions. Just go with the flow, because people changes, shit happens and life goes on, right? I won't promise anything here, I just wanna be a better person. Learn from the past. I know God always beside me in any condition. I believe that!

December 18, 2010

"saya berharap koma dulu sebelum titik. titik itu berkesan mati. tapi yasudahlah, kalau sudah titik mau diapakan lagi?"

December 11, 2010

Going The Distance

A romantic comedy centered on a guy and a gal who try to keep their love alive as they shuttle back and forth between New York and San Francisco to see one another. (imdb)


cerita ini menceritakan tentang bagimana usaha dua orang yang menjalin kasih untuk bisa bertemu satu sama lain. berusaha agar mereka berdua tetap bersatu walau adanya jarak yang jauh diantara mereka berdua.
jodoh itu tidak hanya melihat dan menunggu siapa jodoh kita, dari mana jodoh kita. tapi jodoh itu bisa saja ada di sekitar kita. orang yang selalu bersama kita.
jodoh itu tergantung gimana kita berdua berusaha dan berkoban untuk mempertahankannya. kembali lagi, mungkin jodoh itu di tangan Tuhan. Tuhanlah yang menentukan semuanya, kita sebagai manusia hanya bisa berusaha dan berkorban agar orang yang kita sayang bisa menjadi jodoh kita, bukan? Tuhan pun maha tahu, kalau kita berusaha dan rela berkorban dan berjuang untuk orang yang kita sayang. pasti Tuhan menjadikan dia jodoh kita.

pada intinya, suatu hubungan itu bukan hanya satu orang saja yang harus berjuang dan mempertahankan hubungan. karena yang menjalankan hubungan ini terdiri dari dua orang yang saling menyayangi. so, we have to fight for each other. logic and feeling must be run simultaneously.

December 8, 2010

Two Strangers

Last night I texted you. I don't know why I suddenly missed you. don't you realize, if we talk like a strangers in almost 3 months. we don't talk much as much as we usually did.
sometimes we talk unimportant things just wanna talk to each other and make some weird topics. and it just too strange!
I miss to tell you anything like we used to. I really do.

December 7, 2010



a simple birthday wish

Good People Dies Young

don't waste your time on things that you think you don't have it, because there is always someone out there who needs what you have - Rika Puspita


yesterday was the most saddest day for my entire class. our friend, RIKA PUSPITA has passed away. she was a nice, she was smart, she was cute and she was young when she died.

saya mungkin tidak begitu dekat dengan, Rika. tapi pribadinnya cukup melekat di hati saya. sedikit cerita, Rika adalah cewek mungil yang riang. dia pribadi yang tidak pelit akan ilmu. saya ini termaksud mahasiswa yang malas, apa lagi menjelang uts saya jarang sekali belajar. saya sukanya terima beres dan terima jawaban aja dari kiri-kanan saya (aduh memalukan!). suatu saat, ketika uts saya duduk di samping Rika, saya ingin bertanya kepadanya tentang jawaban uts pada saat itu. awalnya Rika enggan kasih jawaban kesaya, mungkin dia menyuruh saya untuk usaha dulu, mengerjakan sebisa saya. tapi akhirnya dia nyerah dan akhirnya kasih saya jawabannya juga, yaa karena saya memasang muka melas, mungkin dia kesian sama saya. kamu kesian yah sama saya, Rika? ehehehe
kamu selalu bilang saya lucu, walaupun kenyataannya saya ini jauh dari kata lucu loh, Rik. saya senang ngobrol sama kamu, bercanda sama kamu, di ajarin kamu, di kasih contekan sama kamu. hehehe

tanggal 19 November 2010 lalu saya mengucapkan selamat ulang tahun ke Rika dan tanggal 3 Desember 2010 dia menyucapkan selamat ulang tahun ke saya.
tanggal 6 Desember 2010, Rika pergi di panggil oleh Tuhan YME.

aaah begitu cepat kamu pergi, Rika. pergi tanpa berpamitan terlebih dahulu dengan orang-orang yang sayang sama kamu.



aahh Rika, we love you, but God loves you more :'')
your smile, your voice and your kindness always be in our heart.
may you rest in peace my dearest friend. we can't talk and laugh like we used to :'( but we'll always remember and sent our prayers to you, Rika :')

November 14, 2010

Mata Ikan

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October 3, 2010

I'm here, he's there.Things changed. It just got to be too hard.

We started on September 11, 2007 and we ended on September 29, 2010. after 3 years 19 days we've been together, we finally decided to ended the most long relationship we've had. aaaaaah! it's too sad, isn't it? it's too sad when you know that all wrong and mistakes are came by you (me). uuhm not only me, but us. it's too sad when you have to face it the world without him/her who usually they always be around us when we needed. i don't know, my eyes has been dry. i can't handle the tears to comes up. i'm too sad, don't you? i love you, i really do :'( how can i be so stupid like a little fish? did something who actually wrong, and you don't like if i did it. all can i say is sorry. i'm deeply sorry. but, you know what? i also feel so so so tired of this, not with you but the situation (the backstreet thing and how insensitive you are). i think this is the best way that we have choose. if we're meant to be, we will find its way, right? and i'm sure about that. i feel same like this quote "how the world seems so unfair, creating a love that cannot be shared as you go your way and i go mine"

you're the best thing that ever happened to me, i'm feel so glad for having a slice of cake with you, i'm so happy having an ice cream with you, went to some place that no one can't find us. to have had you in my life and being a little part of your life. i love you, Rozy :')